I've had another frustrating week - and it is just Wednesday. I'm really at a personal impasse about which direction to take both in classes and for a larger dissertation path. As I'm also a huge worrywart by nature, I'm feeling pretty uncomfortable. After a discussion with my advisor today, I realized that what I'm struggling with is finding a balance between what I would choose in a perfect world, and what is accomplish-able.
I think that this is probably a good moment to review why I decided to pursue this degree. And since I'm needing to see those reasons clearly stated, I am going to write them as a list.
1. I find women's healthcare to be the most interesting area of healthcare.
2. I trust women to tell me what they need.
3. I have questions about how to best provide care to women.
4. I know that these questions are answerable through science.
5. I want to participate in answering those questions and educating the next generation of nurses.
Okay. There's the basic list.
It is a reassuring list. I am doing this for more than one good reason. What I need to embrace now is that this is a process, a multi-year process. I have time to think about how to accomplish this degree and to learn more about the best way to direct myself to accomplish my longer-term goals. I do not need to have the perfect answer to anything (research question, dissertation question, methods, etc.) yet.
I am just working through the process.
I'm going for a run now. I need to burn off some of these stress hormones...
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